Wednesday, January 2, 2013

When you say "anything"

Originally posted 10 july 2012 on Flickers of a Faithful FireFly

There are times we pray safe
"Lord, I'll do as you say, go where you send me"
as long as it fits our schedule
as long as we can understand His request

And there are times we pray dangerous
when we declare
"Lord, let Your will, not mine be done
glorify Yourself in my life
whatever it is you want from me
 I'll do anything"
and in that moment of surrender
we think we can imagine what anything might mean

anything means anything

For now, the anything He has chosen
is for me to walk through a medical condition
I would not have expected
that creates the need for skull base and neuro surgery
this will entail much travel between home
and Saskatoon where my medical/surgical team will be based

Perhaps as a dear friend prayed for me on Sunday
this is more than a medical journey
but a mission as well
I will certainly be meeting many new people along the way

in the days, weeks and months to come
if He asks it of me
you may find me writing
about my journey through the trials of an acoustic neuroma
about consults, surgery and the recovery process

I ask for your patience
your questions
your grace
and for your prayers
that He indeed will be glorified
in the way I walk this out.

1 comment:

  1. Hello dear sister in Christ. Thank you for sharing your journey. I too went down the road with an acoustic neuroma and finally had it removed surgically this past October. When I read your journal, it sounds much like my motto from the very beginning. "not my will by Thine dear Lord". Sitting at the feet of Jesus has been a beautiful lesson for me. Being still and knowing that He is God has been a spiritual exercise that I would not trade no matter how hard my trial has been. One thing that gets me through each day is the verse that reminds us that these are light afflictions that are not to be compared to the Glory ahead! Praise be to God. If you ever need to talk, my email is In the mean time, I will keep you in prayer. I fully understand all the flooding thoughts and the surrendering them over to our Lord. It is a constant battle.
    Much love in Christ, Kim